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I don't know I think it is a combination of a lot of things. It's a feeling of gratitude. It really is. A feeling like when I was younger you know, obsessed with films and reading you know whatever, Empire Magazine, the Premier Magazine, I loved being filmed and I had this sort of terror in some ways that I wouldn't ever be able to do something that I felt that I'd have a facility for and that was a kind of horrible dawning realization you know you know based on and the atmosphere at the time, and what very well-meaning people said to me at the time. So I guess that was a real private shame that I carried with me, and a private fear that I carried with me the whole time, because I felt like I could have do something that might be amusing people. And a sort of language that you could speak, speak but that you have no opportunity to ever speak. And so, Stephen Beresford, who was the most extraordinarily gifted person, wrote this exemplary screenplay that seemed to understand everything that I was talking about. And I spent my life in the theatre, theatre and played that part. And the gratitude that I feel the opportunity I guess to be able to play that part just seems so enormous and so miraculous really And that why it means so much to me and why it's so peppered. And actually, the reason I wanted to be at the center of it, I didn't want anybody to get it wrong. And it's peppered. The story is completely peppered. The cast of the most incredible people who I've loved and acted with. like Olivia Colman and the great Billy Piper who I worked with in the Lena Dunne movie, who's extraordinary, Johnny Flynn who plays Dickie, you just saw there, and Dickie Greenland plays Richard Eyre. You know, my sister, who's also an actor who we put ourselves on tape for auditions for years, and she plays the casting director who's literally putting me take from me. And Ian's best friend, who's, you know, of course, a lot of his best friends are still around. And they're in the movie. And, I don't know, it's just, it's so, it's a combination of so many extraordinary things. And it's, you know, beautifully delivered by Simon Stone, you know, expertly, you know, woven together by Stephen Beresford. So I feel like it's just a, I don't know, it's just, it's something, as I say, my mom had died, she died a year and a half ago, who was such a big, you know, influence on my life, and you know when you feel like you've got nothing to lose, when you're in that grief state, and you think, I'm just going to go for this, this is, it felt like, a bit like the way I think, in some ways, Ian may have felt, which is, I'm going to put all this energy into something else, into living. And so I became very, very passionate about trying to get it made and I'm so proud of it and I just hope everybody loves it.